Life till now...
I am in my late twenties and will be on the right side of thirty this year( but as per the records it would be next year which is wrong).
All these years my single status(with a tag of virgin) intrigued me a lot.
Questions like..
" Am I the only virgin in this bus, local train, movie hall, mall, hotel, (barring kids under 18)?
Am I the only guy without a steady(this word is for my self consolation, even though I never had any gf) GF?
Luckily the thought of having a GF never crossed my mind but for sometimes (during my lone walks to Lokhandwala couple of times every week).
The very thought of having a GF by my side gave me goosebumps, a kind of eerie(sick to be precise) feeling.
I think I wouldn't be able to handle a girl who is not related to me in any manner but for my fiancee(when I am engaged to her).
Now the question regarding my being virgin. It is neither a mystery like Bermuda triangle nor 8th wonder. Its because I am not married yet. In short bachelor.
Well, every time I felt like as if I am falling for a particular girl or started developing feelings or responding to cetrtain things then my instincts would take over me n keep me STILL for some time n allow the transition( uncontrolled and inevitable feelings) pass by, and finally hold me back.
Once I regain consciousness and allow the tsunami to pass by, then I would take a back step and feel proud for having conquered something which many couldn't do.
Life has never been smooth and uncertainty seemed comfortable which is in a way surprising, interesting and ofcourse destined.
I am in my late twenties and will be on the right side of thirty this year( but as per the records it would be next year which is wrong).
All these years my single status(with a tag of virgin) intrigued me a lot.
Questions like..
" Am I the only virgin in this bus, local train, movie hall, mall, hotel, (barring kids under 18)?
Am I the only guy without a steady(this word is for my self consolation, even though I never had any gf) GF?
Luckily the thought of having a GF never crossed my mind but for sometimes (during my lone walks to Lokhandwala couple of times every week).
The very thought of having a GF by my side gave me goosebumps, a kind of eerie(sick to be precise) feeling.
I think I wouldn't be able to handle a girl who is not related to me in any manner but for my fiancee(when I am engaged to her).
Now the question regarding my being virgin. It is neither a mystery like Bermuda triangle nor 8th wonder. Its because I am not married yet. In short bachelor.
Well, every time I felt like as if I am falling for a particular girl or started developing feelings or responding to cetrtain things then my instincts would take over me n keep me STILL for some time n allow the transition( uncontrolled and inevitable feelings) pass by, and finally hold me back.
Once I regain consciousness and allow the tsunami to pass by, then I would take a back step and feel proud for having conquered something which many couldn't do.
Life has never been smooth and uncertainty seemed comfortable which is in a way surprising, interesting and ofcourse destined.

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